I hate....the game.

I woke up this morning, and the first thing that was on my mind was The Game. And yes...I know I just lost the game right now again. I can't believe I'm leaving for Europe in two weeks! It's weird having these mixed feelings about graduation. Excitement towards Europe, yet sadness in realizing that the day I leave for Europe is the last day I'll see a lot of people for a long time. I won't say the last day necessarily, because I will make an effort to see the friends who matter in my life, but it will definitely be a long while before I can. Once again, my post has taken a turn, away from the title of it. I'm blessed to have such awesome friends, and I guess in the end it means much more that I am sad to leave college because I've had such a great time with the people around me, than would it mean if I cared less about college and wanted desperately to get out. oh bittersweetness.

great times, awesome friends, lots of laughter!

This past week has been awesome! My directors at my admin. job were out of town for the whole week for conferences and so of course that meant I had to work super duper hard, hunched over my assignments, feverishly setting up the lesson plans. Assignments that would take me at most 2 or 3 hours to complete if I wanted to, but stretched over a span of a week. It got to the point that I was bored of sitting around, chatting on my blackberry. I'm paranoid though, that the people who work in the other departments are spying on me for my directors and will tell them that I have been coming in a tad late and leaving a tad early (nothing more than half an hour or so of my four hour work shifts), or that I've been on the phone for half the time and using the internet.

Oh well, I guess. Oh well! This "oh well" thing has been my mentality lately. Oh well to unanswered care extender e-mails. Oh well to walking in late to Coffee Bean. Oh well to not looking at what my tutoring students are studying for LS2. Oh well to not studying for my midterm. After writing all of this (and there are way more "oh well" moments that could waste space here), I just realized how bad this mindset is! What I initially blamed senioritis for, might actually be something more malignant and long-term than senioritis is! I tried to be more productive, do more things, read more, try new hobbies, etc.

Okay, so I just realized that I totally deterred from my main purpose of this blog, as apparent by the mismatch between the title and the content. I guess what I initially wanted to write will be reserved for the next post...oh well! =)